Showing posts with label Hope. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Hope. Show all posts

Monday, May 25, 2009

After Six Months


It's been a long difficult battle, harder this time than the last but in the end we were victorious. Yes, we because you never fight this fight alone.

After six months of needles, blood tests, chemo treatments, nausea, fatigue, bone pain, digestion issues and insomnia...

After six months of faithful intercessors, loving family members and caring friends...

After six months of enjoying the good days, enduring the bad days, and just choosing to go forward...

After six months of being loved and supported by the most amazing wife any man has ever had...

We got a good report... "no evidence of cancer". I'm back in remission. whew...

To all of you who prayed... thank you!

To all who encouraged, helped and cared... thank you!

To Nadine, I could never have made it through this again without you, you're amazing, you're the best and I'm so glad you're mine. I love you and I thank you. I remain forever yours.

Dear God, thank you.

Ok everybody, break time is over, let’s get back to work!

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Just Passing Through


God's word through the prophet Isaiah spoke to me this morning, from chapter 43...

1 But now, this is what the LORD says— he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.

2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.


"When you pass through", hmmm... not when you walk around or go over or slide under but... when you pass through. There are seasons of life that I would rather go around than pass through but I'm not always given that option.

I've learned and I am continuing to learn that faith isn't refined by going around or over or under. Faith isn't formed on the pathways of avoidance, denial or repression. Faith is formed by passing through - even when it's the fire.
  • My path is set... so be it.
  • The road is hard... so be it.
  • The fire is hot... so be it.
I have been here before, so this I know - I WILL NOT be afraid and I WILL make it to the other side because...
  • The Lord has created me!
  • The Lord has formed me!
  • The Lord has redeemed me!
  • The Lord has called me by name and I am His!
  • The Lord is with me!
With my eyes and my hope fixed on Him I run to the battle. See you on the other side my friends because I am only passing through!

(c) Tom Zawacki 2008

Friday, June 06, 2008

A Psalm of David


Sometimes King David communicates my heart better than I ever possibly could, what more can I add...


Psalm 139


1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.

2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.


3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.


4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.


5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.


6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.


7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?


8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.


9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,


10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.


11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"


12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.


13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.


14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.


15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,


16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.


17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!


18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.


19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!


20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.


21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?


22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.


23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.


24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.


Amen

Monday, April 28, 2008

Hunting for the Light

I have a friend Hunter; he’s 13 and attends my church. Recently Hunter started a blog titled “Hunting for the Light”. His most recent post blew me away! It restored my hope in the future for both our nation and the church! This is what he wrote:

I just had this running through my head for a few days I don’t know what it really is but this is it.

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What if you believed you could fly would you jump?


What if you had the faith to move mountains would you push?


What if everything in your life was taken away would you have faith that everything was going to turnout?


NEVER stop believing!


Do yourself a favor, stop by Hunter’s blog and leave him an encouraging comment. I can’t think of a better way to sow into our future.


Hunter you rock!

Tom

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Take Your Best Shot


I went for a walk around the park today and noticed a father and son playing basketball, the son was maybe 5 and cute as could be. He’s bouncing a basketball that’s bigger than his head and trying with all he’s got to shoot it toward the basket. He dribbles, dribbles, dribbles and prepares to take his shot. He gives it his best heave ho and misses the rim by 4, maybe 5 feet. Undaunted with a huge smile on his face the boy runs after the loose ball, quickly catches up to it and announces to his dad loud enough for me to hear…


“Ah, I almost made it!”


For an instant his dad and I lock eyes and smile. It was a delightful moment. Maybe, just maybe that’s how The Father sees me. Maybe that’s how I need to see me? Maybe that’s how you need to see you? As I walked on by the boy dribbled, dribbled, dribbled positioning himself for his next shot. Gotta love that little kid.

© Tom Zawacki 2008

Thursday, February 14, 2008

The Problem With Fear


By John Paul Jackson

The problem with fear is that if you look hard enough, you will always find something to convince you that your fear is real — it just might happen. I’ve said it before: What you focus on, you make room for. This is especially true where your fears are concerned.


If you think about it . . . it could happen. Not because you thought about it, but because it literally could happen. You could be in a car accident and die — it could happen. Aliens could invade; we don’t have tangible proof that they don’t exist. You could contract some horrible disease and have to live in confinement for the rest of your life — it’s happened before.


Yes, you might be mugged when you leave your house, and yes, you might find a brown recluse in your bathroom tonight. A piano could fall out of the sky and crush you — it literally could! You might just happen to be exactly when and where you need to be when the movers’ rope snaps, and the piano falls smack on your head. It could happen.


Let me repeat: Fear exists because there is the slight possibility that what you fear could happen, no matter how far-fetched. If there was no possibility of it happening, then most of us wouldn’t be afraid. But the problem is, it could happen! And that’s where we get in trouble. The enemy wants nothing more than to make us trembling and fearful, because then he’s won. If we allow “what if” questions to plague us, they will.


  • “What if my deepest fear happens to me?”
  • “What if I lose my job?”
  • “What if I lose everything?”
  • “What if God doesn’t come through for me this time?”
  • “What if He’s doing this to me to teach me a lesson?”
  • “What if I don’t measure up?”
  • “What if — anything?”

Relief from fear really comes down to one, simple thing: STOP IT. What does God say about worry? Don’t (Matthew 6). What does God say about fear? Don’t (Isaiah 41). If you focus on whether or not you really have something to be afraid of, you’ll find what you’re looking for. If you’re looking for something to fear, you’ll find it. But God does not say, “Look around. Look real good. Make sure you have nothing to be afraid of, and then trust Me.”


No, instead He says, very simply, “Don’t be afraid. Just don’t be, because I’m with you” (Isaiah 41). This battle that people have with fear really doesn’t have much to do with whether or not the fear exists. It has everything to do with trust.


Today, do you make the decision to trust your Father? Because sometimes, that’s the best we can do. When we’re staring down the barrel of a loaded fear, sometimes all we can say is, “God, I have no idea what’s going on here, but I choose to trust You. I choose to believe that You’re guiding my steps, even though I feel completely lost. I choose to believe that You are good.”


And it’s in those moments that Heaven rejoices. It’s in those moments that God takes your face in His hands and says, “Hold on, son. Hold on, daughter. You will see the goodness of God in the land of the living.”


Don’t allow the enemy to push you around with “what if” questions. God has conquered him, and he has no authority in your life except what you give him. Keep that in mind the next time he presents you with a “what if.”


© 2008 John Paul Jackson, Streams Ministries International. All rights reserved. www.streamsministries.com.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Promises Fulfilled

Jesus is our ultimate example in all things. His birth is the ultimate example of a prophetic promise fulfilled. Some of the greatest revelatory voices of all time prophesied the details of Jesus’ birth; Micah, Isaiah, Daniel, Jeremiah, Hosea and Judges just to name a few.

Consider the account of Jesus’ birth… The timing and circumstances of his birth were inconvenient to say the least. The pregnancy itself was socially unacceptable. The delivery was no doubt painful, very painful. This greatest of gifts came in an immature, infant form. As amazing as this gift was to all of mankind, there wasn’t any room for it. The setting and surroundings of this promises’ fulfillment were extremely messy and it was acommapined by supernatural signs and wonders.

Jesus’ birth is proof that our Father keeps his promises and He will keep his promises to you. It just might come in unexpected ways. It might be smaller than you thought it would be. It very well may be messier than you expected. It might be surrounded by crap and there may not be any room for it. If this is your story, be of good cheer, this just might be God at work in your life.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

© Tom Zawacki 2007

(Photo Credit Unknown)

Friday, December 22, 2006

Hope

I spoke to a few friends yesterday about hope, more specifically the absence of hope and how to acquire it. The holiday season from Thanksgiving to New Years can be very difficult. Memories both joyful and painful are brought to the surface. As a result hopes can be heightened or diminished. For far too many the familiar words of Proverbs 13:12 are painfully true:

“Hope deferred makes the heart sick…

”Most of us, in the midst of difficult circumstances, could make the following argument “if something, anything good would finally happen, then I would have some hope!” Hmmm… I’m encouraged when good things happen and that encouragement may make me feel better but that’s not hope. Hope doesn’t come from receiving the object of our affection. In order for it to truly be hope, it must be present before there is any evidence of our desire.

My question is… what is hope? Hope means to wait with an eager expectation. Peterson’s The Message interprets hope as being passionately patient. Passionate patience and eager waiting… not words I would usually pair up, however, they suit the paradox that is hope and they do it very well. For me they stir the image of a small child on Christmas morning in those final moments before permission is given to begin opening their presents. Or a first time father pacing intensely as he awaits word of his newborn.

If this is hope, and my well has run dry, how do I get some? You may not like my answer; actually its Saint Paul’s answer from chapter five of his letter to the Romans:

“…we rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us…”

OK, let’s track this back… I’m tired of disappointment so I want hope. In order to obtain hope I need character. Character is developed by persevering and perseverance is the right response to suffering. Hmmm… Could it be that I am right were I need to be? I pray asking for hope and God gives me suffering to endure that character might be formed, thus producing hope which will not disappoint.

Pondering… pondering… pondering…

Maybe I’ll just start praying for encouragement and blessing instead… :)

God of all hope, give hope to the hopeless today. Encourage and bless us where we are and lead us to our destinies, amen.

© Tom Zawacki 2006

Art Credit: Longing by David Costello

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

End of Your Rope

I woke up this morning feeling blue. I’m not sure why, but things felt somehow off balance. I tried to shrug it off and busy myself with the administrative side of ministry. My logic was if I don’t feel good, as least I can be productive. It helped for a few hours.

About lunch time I’d accomplished enough to satisfy my need for productivity and decided to pray. I poured my heart out asking God to reveal to me what was going on and why was I feeling this way. Heaven didn’t open, angels didn’t appear and I didn’t hear an audible voice. However, after a short while I did feel impressed to read the Beatitudes. Actually, I never got past the first one. Matthew 5:3 says…

“Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven”.

This launched me into a study of the three key phrases in this verse, “blessed”, “poor in spirit” and “kingdom of heaven”. I checked out various translations, read commentaries and researched theological dictionaries. I usually enjoy this type of research and today was no exception.

“Blessed” means to be happy, not happiness based on external circumstances but rather on an inner certainty, security. “Poor in spirit” is a great term to study, there are many and varied opinions of its meaning. In a nut shell it means to have a humble opinion of ones self, to see yourself as destitute and bankrupt without God. The best short definition I could find for “the kingdom of heaven” was “The dynamic Reign of God, the assertion of God’s authority over the evil one and his deeds”.

With all of this theological research, employing the vast resources of the internet and my substantial home library, the clearest and simplest interpretation I found for Matthew 5:3 came from Eugene Peterson’s The Message…

“You're blessed when you're at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule.”

You know what, that works for me

Father, where I’m weak, be strong. Meet me at the end of my rope. In every area of my life let there be less of me and much more of you. Make me holy. Make me humble, amen.

© Tom Zawacki 2006

Friday, May 05, 2006

I Have A Dream

(Every time I read this speech or watch or listen to a recording of that day, I’m inspired. This man had a passion for freedom and an ability to articulate it like no other. Take a few moments, read through Dr. King's speech and let it inspire you. )

"I Have A Dream"
by Martin Luther King, Jr,

(Delivered on the steps at the Lincoln Memorial in Washington D.C. on August 28, 1963. Source: Martin Luther King, Jr: The Peaceful Warrior, Pocket Books, NY 1968)

Five score years ago, a great American, in whose symbolic shadow we stand signed the Emancipation Proclamation. This momentous decree came as a great beacon light of hope to millions of Negro slaves who had been seared in the flames of withering injustice. It came as a joyous daybreak to end the long night of captivity. But one hundred years later, we must face the tragic fact that the Negro is still not free.

One hundred years later, the life of the Negro is still sadly crippled by the manacles of segregation and the chains of discrimination. One hundred years later, the Negro lives on a lonely island of poverty in the midst of a vast ocean of material prosperity. One hundred years later, the Negro is still languishing in the corners of American society and finds himself an exile in his own land.

So we have come here today to dramatize an appalling condition. In a sense we have come to our nation's capital to cash a check. When the architects of our republic wrote the magnificent words of the Constitution and the Declaration of Independence, they were signing a promissory note to which every American was to fall heir.

This note was a promise that all men would be guaranteed the inalienable rights of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. It is obvious today that America has defaulted on this promissory note insofar as her citizens of color are concerned. Instead of honoring this sacred obligation, America has given the Negro people a bad check which has come back marked "insufficient funds." But we refuse to believe that the bank of justice is bankrupt. We refuse to believe that there are insufficient funds in the great vaults of opportunity of this nation.

So we have come to cash this check -- a check that will give us upon demand the riches of freedom and the security of justice. We have also come to this hallowed spot to remind America of the fierce urgency of now. This is no time to engage in the luxury of cooling off or to take the tranquilizing drug of gradualism. Now is the time to rise from the dark and desolate valley of segregation to the sunlit path of racial justice. Now is the time to open the doors of opportunity to all of God's children. Now is the time to lift our nation from the quicksands of racial injustice to the solid rock of brotherhood.

It would be fatal for the nation to overlook the urgency of the moment and to underestimate the determination of the Negro. This sweltering summer of the Negro's legitimate discontent will not pass until there is an invigorating autumn of freedom and equality. Nineteen sixty-three is not an end, but a beginning. Those who hope that the Negro needed to blow off steam and will now be content will have a rude awakening if the nation returns to business as usual. There will be neither rest nor tranquility in America until the Negro is granted his citizenship rights.

The whirlwinds of revolt will continue to shake the foundations of our nation until the bright day of justice emerges. But there is something that I must say to my people who stand on the warm threshold which leads into the palace of justice. In the process of gaining our rightful place we must not be guilty of wrongful deeds. Let us not seek to satisfy our thirst for freedom by drinking from the cup of bitterness and hatred.

We must forever conduct our struggle on the high plane of dignity and discipline. we must not allow our creative protest to degenerate into physical violence. Again and again we must rise to the majestic heights of meeting physical force with soul force.

The marvelous new militancy which has engulfed the Negro community must not lead us to distrust of all white people, for many of our white brothers, as evidenced by their presence here today, have come to realize that their destiny is tied up with our destiny and their freedom is inextricably bound to our freedom.

We cannot walk alone. And as we walk, we must make the pledge that we shall march ahead. We cannot turn back. There are those who are asking the devotees of civil rights, "When will you be satisfied?" we can never be satisfied as long as our bodies, heavy with the fatigue of travel, cannot gain lodging in the motels of the highways and the hotels of the cities. We cannot be satisfied as long as the Negro's basic mobility is from a smaller ghetto to a larger one. We can never be satisfied as long as a Negro in Mississippi cannot vote and a Negro in New York believes he has nothing for which to vote. No, no, we are not satisfied, and we will not be satisfied until justice rolls down like waters and righteousness like a mighty stream.

I am not unmindful that some of you have come here out of great trials and tribulations. Some of you have come fresh from narrow cells. Some of you have come from areas where your quest for freedom left you battered by the storms of persecution and staggered by the winds of police brutality. You have been the veterans of creative suffering. Continue to work with the faith that unearned suffering is redemptive.

Go back to Mississippi, go back to Alabama, go back to Georgia, go back to Louisiana, go back to the slums and ghettos of our northern cities, knowing that somehow this situation can and will be changed. Let us not wallow in the valley of despair. I say to you today, my friends, that in spite of the difficulties and frustrations of the moment, I still have a dream. It is a dream deeply rooted in the American dream.

I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: "We hold these truths to be self-evident: that all men are created equal." I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slaveowners will be able to sit down together at a table of brotherhood. I have a dream that one day even the state of Mississippi, a desert state, sweltering with the heat of injustice and oppression, will be transformed into an oasis of freedom and justice. I have a dream that my four children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character. I have a dream today.

I have a dream that one day the state of Alabama, whose governor's lips are presently dripping with the words of interposition and nullification, will be transformed into a situation where little black boys and black girls will be able to join hands with little white boys and white girls and walk together as sisters and brothers. I have a dream today. I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain, and the crooked places will be made straight, and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together. This is our hope. This is the faith with which I return to the South. With this faith we will be able to hew out of the mountain of despair a stone of hope. With this faith we will be able to transform the jangling discords of our nation into a beautiful symphony of brotherhood. With this faith we will be able to work together, to pray together, to struggle together, to go to jail together, to stand up for freedom together, knowing that we will be free one day.

This will be the day when all of God's children will be able to sing with a new meaning, "My country, 'tis of thee, sweet land of liberty, of thee I sing. Land where my fathers died, land of the pilgrim's pride, from every mountainside, let freedom ring." And if America is to be a great nation, this must become true. So let freedom ring from the prodigious hilltops of New Hampshire. Let freedom ring from the mighty mountains of New York. Let freedom ring from the heightening Alleghenies of Pennsylvania! Let freedom ring from the snowcapped Rockies of Colorado! Let freedom ring from the curvaceous peaks of California! But not only that; let freedom ring from Stone Mountain of Georgia! Let freedom ring from Lookout Mountain of Tennessee! Let freedom ring from every hill and every molehill of Mississippi. From every mountainside, let freedom ring.

When we let freedom ring, when we let it ring from every village and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God's children, black men and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual, "Free at last! free at last! thank God Almighty, we are free at last!"

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Resurrection Hope

There is so much that has been said and that can be said about Christ’s resurrection from the dead. It is the cornerstone of our faith. Personally, Christ’s resurrection gives me hope. From a natural perspective all seemed lost on Good Friday. It was a crushing day for Mary, Peter, John and the rest of the disciple. In their place I would have felt emotionally devastated, defeated, confused and desperate. However, by Sunday morning everything changed, everything.

What looked like the end… was the beginning.
What looked like losing… was winning.
What looked like defeat… was victory.
What looked like death… was life.

As a follower of Christ, the power of the resurrection is still at work in me. This infuses me with hope! No matter what my circumstances might be, no matter how bad things might look, I have hope. To quote an old Christian song “thought it seems like Friday night, Sunday’s on the way”. (Does anybody else remember Carmen?)

What if my present circumstances are only a Friday night and my Sunday is coming? To all of you Friday night-ers out there, what ever you do, DON’T QUIT! Hold on to hope, resurrection hope.

Lord, give us the grace we need for our Fridays and the faith we need for our Sundays, amen

Happy Easter!

Copyright © Tom Zawacki 2006

And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit, who lives in you. (Saint Paul, Romans 8:11)

Never, Never, Never Give Up! (Winston Churchill)

Saturday, April 15, 2006

It's Gonna Be Worth it All

To commemorate Good Friday we met at the church and watched Mel Gibson’s The Passion of the Christ. It is such a powerful movie. I’m deeply moved every time I watch it. Christ’s passionate love for us is vividly displayed in an extremely profound way.

One of the most important messages of Good Friday is the fact that the story isn’t finished yet. The gospel didn’t end with Good Friday and thank God, neither did Gibson’s portrayal of it. Sunday is coming, resurrection is at hand. There’s hope for us, no matter our circumstances – our story isn’t finished yet, your story isn’t finished yet!

We worshipped for a while after the movie. One of the songs we listened to was Rita Springer’s “Worth it All” from her “Effortless” CD. It touched my heart so. The movie reminded me that I was worth it all to Him and the song reminded me that He is worth it all to me. Read the words, listen to the clip and let it touch your heart too. It really is gonna be worth it all!


Worth it All
by Rita Springer

I don't understand Your ways
Oh but I will give You my song
Give You all of my praise
You hold on to all my pain
With it You are pulling me closer
And pulling me into Your ways

Now around every corner
And up every mountain
I'm not looking for crowns
Or the water from fountains
I'm desperate in seeking, frantic believing
That the sight of Your face
Is all that I needI will say to You

It's gonna be worth it
It's gonna be worth it
It's gonna be worth it all
I believe this

It's gonna be worth it
It's gonna be worth it
It's gonna be worth it all
I believe this

You're gonna be worth it
You're gonna be worth it
You're gonna be worth it all
I believe this

You're gonna be worth it
You're gonna be worth it
You're gonna be worth it all
I believe this

You can listen to a part of the song by clicking here

Copyright © Tom Zawacki 2006

Monday, April 03, 2006

I Dream of a Church...

I found this on A Company of Friends (hat tip: tomas Perez)

I Dream of A Church...


Defined by relationships, not an address


Led by shepherds, managed by leaders


Where the Christian life is understood to be a journey


Where worship is genuine, unfettered and communal


Where new congregations are birthed before buildings are ever considered


Where spiritual conversations are as common as talk about the weather


Where we pray more than we talk about prayer


Where we expect the supernatural to happen because we actually believe God is in our midst


Where the people have a reputation for being flaming liberals; liberal with their time, their resources, their talents and their love


That attracts more Kingdom investors than Christian consumers


Where humility is the vibe


That is winsome and attractive to those who don't yet know Jesus not so much because of what's happening up front, but because of who's sitting beside them


Where the timeless truths of Scripture are not held hostage to traditions and preferences


Where women are cherished, respected and have the full freedom to serve and lead in the manner God intended


That understands and embraces the uniqueness of every generation


Where the failure to multiply ministry is socially unacceptable


Where artistry, creativity and curiosity are deliberately encouraged and not limited in their expression to a stage


Where the true "seekers" are the members; seeking to love their friends and neighbors into the Kingdom...just like Jesus